Introduction:

Hello, loves! 

My name is Mercedes or better known as Merzy, I'm 16 years old and I wanted to make this blog because I need a place to vent and tell my story, however boring it may be, because maybe there's someone out there who's going through the same things I'm going through and maybe you'll find this inspiring or helpful in some way. Hopefully.

I guess I'll start by saying where I'm from. Well, I'm not saying exactly where. Because you know, parents. But I'm from this tiny Island in the Caribbean. My first language is Spanish but I know English almost as well. 

Right now I'm in summer and doing absolutely nothing with my life except for obsessing over Youtubers and tumblring about it. Yep. That's the life. 

I'm going to start the eleventh grade in August which is slightly terrifying. 

Oh, I forgot to tell you. I'm an aspiring writer, which would explain why I'm making this. 

I've always wanted to tell my story on a novel or something because one of my biggest dreams is to help and inspire others. But I am impatient and frankly, I don't want to wait a whole novel later. 

Anyway, you might be wondering why I'm so special. I'm not really. But I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia a few months ago and it's been very hard for me. I was a mess basically. A nervous, anxious, painful mess. And I thought my life was pretty bad. 

That was until I stumbled into the Fibro tag on tumblr and I realized how much worse others have it. 

Now, one of the things you hear the most when you have this condition is "Others have it way worse than you" and "You shouldn't complain, at least you don't have cancer!" to the point where you start to loath those people because.. what makes their problems so much more important than yours? The logical answer that most people seem not to get is that problems, as well as pain, are subjective. You will never know what another person is feeling because you are not in their brains to feel it for yourself. 

Which is where sympathy and empathy get mix-y and confusing and all that. 

But the point is, when you hear about other people with the same condition as you, all you want to do is run to them, hug them real tight and tell them they're not alone. Because you're not. No matter how much you feel it.

So this is blog is my own virtual hug to everyone out there who's suffering from this or another condition or just feel confused and alone. 

I don't know. I want to help people and I think I'm pretty good at giving advice. 

And heck, maybe I'm just talking to myself here. But it feels good to at least try and vent about all this. 

So, hopefully you'll stick around with me through this twisted, unfinished  roller-coaster called life.

xoxo, 

- Merzy