Has your physical illness had any effect on your mental health?
Yes. Definitely! I think it would be hard for it not to affect my mental health.
I've always been someone who didn't like to complain when I hurt or was sick until it's serious or just plain annoying. And someone who didn't cry in public about themselves, so having fibro was a serious change.
I've had a lot of situations in which I couldn't do my work or I couldn't walk or I was just in pain and people wouldn't believe me. Um... it's hard. Very hard, actually. I even began to question myself and whether my pain was real or not, because everyone was telling me it wasn't.
I hated it. Still do.
I've had anxiety/panic attacks in which the pain wouldn't stop and I would get extremely frustrated with myself. (as I explain here when I talk about Perks of Being a Wallflower)
I also find it very hard to concentrate in class because of the fibro-fog and I get jumpy.
And of course, I got depressed often.
I had to learn a lot about controlling my emotions because when you're always in pain, your emotions get completely hay-wire.
xoxo,
- Merzy
Hi Merzy!
ReplyDeleteI have been reading your blog for awhile and I realized I haven't made a comment yet. As of right now, I am becoming a Registered Nurse. With the help of your blog, I got more insight for future jobs at work (right now in my clinicals).
I really enjoy reading your blog not just for the health information about fibromyalgia, but because of you! You are strong, beautiful, young woman who is strong despite the daily struggle. You inspire me to continue to become a Nurse, even more now than when I first decided years ago. Thank you so much.
Looking forward for new blog posts.
Love,
Judy
oh my god. You have no idea how much this means to me and how happy this makes me :') thank you so much.
DeleteIf you have any questions at all don't be afraid to email me or whatever! Thank you again <3 xoxo