New Year, new me?

  For as long as I can remember I've always had a New Year's Resolution. Always.

  Except not this year..

Because every time I make one, I never complete them. They're always "Do better in school", "Be in Honors." or other things like that. And they never come true for me.

So, I decided not to them this year because I would rather not be disappointed.

Although.. This New Year does make a difference in my life.

2013 was a really shitty year. Not only was I diagnosed with a chronic illness but I also had several anxiety attacks and a few very embarrassing moments. I mean, sure there were some good moments but overall not a great year.

2014 though... it's the year I start senior year... the year I have to start making choices that will build the rest of my life.

I've never had a problem deciding what I wanted to do, I knew very early on that I was a writer.. but, I am also very insecure. I am not good enough. And I know that. But I always try to be optimist about things, I always believe that everything will work out eventually and that everything happens for a reason.

2013 was a character development year, a filler, for the big stuff. And I'm scared (who wouldn't be?) of what is in store for me in the future but... I'm also excited.

Hopefully, 2014 will treat me well.

xoxo,

- Merzy