About TFIOS;

If you didn't know, The Faults In Our Stars is a very successful novel written by John Green and recently it has be adapted to a big blockbuster movie. Meaning that this book, which is insanely complex, will put in the mainstream eye for other people to interpret. Which means not a lot of people will understand the meaning behind it or they will see it completely wrong, and it will frustrate the others who do. 

Although I understand why many disabled/chronically ill people hate what came out of this movie; the whole able-bodied people romanticizing being disabled/chronically ill, etc. And It was definitely one of my worries about having TFIOS mainstream. 


But, I do want you all to understand, It’s okay to like TFIOS. 

And besides what other people think, TFIOS IS NOT ROMANTICIZING BEING DISABLED/CHRONICALLY ILL. It’s the exact opposite actually, TFIOS is an amazing novel about two cancer patients dealing with life and death and not being able to do what other kids could easily do.


THAT’S WHAT IT’S REALLY ABOUT.


John Green wrote it because he was inspired by a nerdfighter who had cancer and was dealing with the same problems Hazel and Gus were dealing with.

YOU CAN HATE ON THE WAY PEOPLE TOOK THE MOVIE, BUT DO NOT SAY THAT TFIOS ROMANTICIZED IT BECAUSE IT IS SIMPLY NOT TRUE.

And yes, I might be a tad defensive about it because this book changed my life and it helped me when I was going through difficult times with my fibromyalgia. But I just wanted to make it clear. 

You can hate the movie or the book, but don’t say things that aren’t true.
xoxo,

- Merzy

Stressed out?

Wow, it's been way too long since I've written on here.

Sorry.

This year has been pretty crazy; finished junior year with pretty fucking good grades, did my SATs without having a panic attack (yay!), chose my top colleges, changed psychiatrist and other stuff.

But right now, I'm going to talk to you about one thing; stress.

We all have it, we all know how it feels like and for some of us, that stress can easily be turned into anxiety. And that anxiety can have physical symptoms like hyperventilating, high blood pressure, sweating, crying and chronic pain.

It can be really traumatic.

So, how do you handle this?

• First of all,  don't let it get so bad. The most important thing of all is to not, under any circumstances, let that stress turn into anxiety. Try anything to achieve this: take a break, read a book, have a bath, watch a movie, meditate, do a bit of exercise or yoga, anything to tai your mind off it.
• Organize yourself. This is possibly the hardest thing for me to do because I'm naturally a pretty messy person and keeping track of things I have to do doesn't come so easily. Try to make a to-do list, it could be weekly or monthly or daily, 
• Ask for help. Also another thing I have trouble with, asking for help from someone could be really hard, especially if you have an ego or are stubborn (like me). Your friends and family are there to help, don't hesitate to ask a person you can really trust to help you if you really need it.
• Don't give yourself a hard time. You will achieve your goal, it may time some time, maybe more than others, but you will do it. It's important to remember that you're just human and that's okay. Don't knock yourself out, you're doing your best and that's enough.

I hope these tips helped a little bit, if not I wrote another post on the subject of anxiety and chronic pain and how to deal with it.

I made a mix of songs that might help you guys - check it out here.

If you have any questions or simply want to talk to someone, I am always available on my tumblr or email. 

xoxo,

- Merzy

New Year, new me?

  For as long as I can remember I've always had a New Year's Resolution. Always.

  Except not this year..

Because every time I make one, I never complete them. They're always "Do better in school", "Be in Honors." or other things like that. And they never come true for me.

So, I decided not to them this year because I would rather not be disappointed.

Although.. This New Year does make a difference in my life.

2013 was a really shitty year. Not only was I diagnosed with a chronic illness but I also had several anxiety attacks and a few very embarrassing moments. I mean, sure there were some good moments but overall not a great year.

2014 though... it's the year I start senior year... the year I have to start making choices that will build the rest of my life.

I've never had a problem deciding what I wanted to do, I knew very early on that I was a writer.. but, I am also very insecure. I am not good enough. And I know that. But I always try to be optimist about things, I always believe that everything will work out eventually and that everything happens for a reason.

2013 was a character development year, a filler, for the big stuff. And I'm scared (who wouldn't be?) of what is in store for me in the future but... I'm also excited.

Hopefully, 2014 will treat me well.

xoxo,

- Merzy